Thursday, 27 November 2008

thanksgiving wishes

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL MY FRIENDS IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, thanks for all you kind comments,your friendship,and your encouragement.
Take care all mort

Thursday, 20 November 2008


well,thats over with.i got to Norwich hospital at 3pm and was lucky enough to get called straight in,the lady that was being scanned had had to have a dye injected,and there was a wait for it to i was straight in for mine. anyone doesnt know,Magnetic Resonance Imaging scanners are like a tunnel. you are slid in,and it is not a nice procedure. god help you if you are claustrophobic, i didnt think i was until i had my first one. the roof of said "tunnel" is about 6 to 9 inches away from your nose. you get to know the patterns in the plastic very well. i was in the corpse position lol.on my back arms crossed,with the "panic button" they give you to hold in case you feel ill in there and want to get out fast. ear plugs in. the scan "bit" across my head first,then repositioned after the frst scan done. scans last from 14 minutes,the first,8 mins.second,and the last 4 minutes. imagine being in a tin roofed shed with a massive hail storm going on. similar drumming noise. andf you have to keep still. as i get acid reflux if i lay flat,i have to keep trying to swallow,and its bloody hard to keep still and do that. at last it was over,slid out into the light again. all in all i was in and out in 45 minutes. very good indeed. the results will be sent to my consultant,and he will see me on my next appointment with him in january. which is why he wanted the scan done. so he can see how things look. anyway,i got home at 5 and the lovely lady,carol,from Crossroads carers was still with mum,she had said she would keep with her however late i was. she is the carer who comes in now on a thursday afternoon to allow me my time off. which i still have to actually have lol. at least if i dont want,or cant afford to go out i can go to bed. its funny,when she first came 3 or 4 weeks ago and introduced herself,we realised we used to live 4 doors away from each other at Melton Constable,and in fact her parents still live in the same house lol. small world. she is a lovely carer,in the true sense of the word. think tracey could learn a thing or 2 from carol. on a sadder note,it was Emmas funeral today. i can add that she died peacefully with her mother ,grandmother and boyfriend at her bedside. may she find peace. take care all

Wednesday, 19 November 2008

awarded but refused

Yasmin kindly nominated me for the real people real blogs award. thankyou. but i cant accept it yasmin. sorry. im not feeling well, i cant concentrate, and i just cant. sorry. im supposed to nominate 7 more,show links,picture,i just cant do it at the moment.lucy,pamal3,indigo,those are 3 i would have picked.just cant be motivated enough to do it. i have a lot on my mind and just dont want any more. ive got to have an MRI scan tomorrow. i saw the MS nurse today,and she got in touch with consultant.apparently he had wanted me to have scan weeks ago,wasnt happy i hadnt had one,pulled some strings and result. scan tomorrow. all i can think of,is how much change is there? and my mum is scaring me. she really is getting worse. she keeps forgetting things. is so vague. please dont think im not grateful yasmin love. i am. i just cant comply with the rules that come with it. take care all

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

a life cut short through MS.Tribute to a brave young lady.



Some of you may remember a few months ago i asked Jland to pray for Emma,who was seriously ill with a chest infection.she managed to overcome that one,but sadly she caught several more after. She slipped into a coma yesterday,and died at 1am this morning. Her poor mother wendy is in my thoughts.

Emma was just 21 years old. She was diagnosed with MS at the age of just 17. because of her young age,unfortunately she got the most aggressive,progressive form of this evil disease. she has been bedridden for some time now,paralised,fed through a tube,unable to barely talk. JUST 21. She had no chance,her immune system couldn't cope,even with all the anti-biotics the doctor prescribed and gave her. I haven't asked her mothers permission to post this entry,i hope she wont mind. I make no apologies if i upset any of my readers. This girl,young lady rather,WAS JUST 21. She should have had her whole life in front of her. A career. A family of her own. FUN. the things we all expect children,teenagers,young people to have. Her life has been cut short by the same disease i have,and that which was the cause of death of my dear friend Lucys beloved son Alan. M S. EMMA WAS JUST 21.

Remember her in your thoughts,pray for her mother Wendy if you so wish. And also pray,that a cure for this most awful of diseases is found sometime soon.


Take care all.from a deeply saddened mort.i cried today for her.

Sunday, 9 November 2008

















( John McCrae )

On the 11th hour,of the 11th day,of the 11th month 90 years ago,peace finally came.

In every village,town,city across the United Kingdom you can see them.War memorials. filled with the names of those who fell in the War to end all Wars. only a tiny handful are left who remember that awful time. WE MUST NEVER FORGET THOSE WHO DIED.

63 years ago,World War 2 finally came to an end. the dead from that conflict are also remembered on the memorials. again,every year,fewer remain who remember what it was like. WE MUST NEVER FORGET THOSE WHO DIED.

The Falkland war. so many,many more since then. Iraq,and Afghanistan now, whatever we think of these conflicts,whatever the rights and wrongs. WE MUST NEVER FORGET THOSE WHO HAVE DIED PROTECTING THE WEAK,THE POWERLESS,THE OPRESSED.

May God heal those who are ill,give comfort to those who grieve,bring peace to those who are conflicted,and ease the pain of all who are suffering.

Let our hands join in friendship,not in anger.

May all nationalities learn to live side by side as kindly neighbours,may there now be peace all over the world. Amen

with grateful thanks to my friend sybil for the email she kindly sent me.

Take care all

Friday, 7 November 2008

death of a journal birth of a new

well,thanks to jeannettes and others help caring n sharing just went to that great blog scrap heap. never to be seen again. this one ( as i DO hope ya noticed ) has had a make over a wash and brush up. my tags are back. no,not all of them,i will add some more as i want. done away with the microsoft/apple news widget, spruced things up. and now its my journal again. not blog. this is a journal. feels right now. daft? maybe.

So. does this mean mort is back to his old self? no not really. but more optimistic. and the black journal is also back. the one you lovely readers will never see. dont bother trying to peep lol. A) its private,B) its not in this name. why do it again? because sometimes i need to write things down,to get them straight in my head. and couple things are not for public view.

death of jland was sad. i got attached to that journal/this journal.didnt feel like learning new procedures all over again. but i think i have got the hang of this a bit better now. we will the meantime,i shall just say thanks to all my friends,both on here,face and yearbooks,tagged,chatroom,wherever and whoever you are,this journal just came back to life. hope you are going to stay around. take care all

this time i got the right one lol. and more tragedy

again i did it. posted to caring n sharing. anyone know how you delete a journal on blogspot please email me, thanks. it needs to go. anyway,for those who missed it i posted an entry concerning the passing of a neighbour,mrs.W 97,found dead in her house alone. that night i heard noise from next door,sheila was making a hell of a nois,doors banging,and a car roaring off. when i went ot late at night as i usually do,to take a walk and have a last ciggy, ok i know, still smoking,dont nag, i saw her husbands van wasnt there. i had heard there had been a car accident earlier in the evening on the narrow road he travels on,and something told me he was in trouble.
sure enough my mobile rang next day at lunch time,it was sheila. aubrey had been in the car accident and was seriously ill in Addenbrooks hospital,with brain damage and assorted fractures. she is staying there until she knows how he is. spoke to her yesterday,he was in theatre again. very poorly indeed. those of you who do,please pray for him. he needs it.
apparently he was following another car,quite foggy so neither going too fast,and a car came round the corner,on the wrong side of the road, the car in front swerved out onto other side of road,and the car hit aubrey head on. he had to be cut from the wreckage of his van, the driver who hit him was bloody drunk. and walked without a scratch. another life possibly ruined by drink driving. still people dont learn you cant drink and drive. i feel so sorry for sheila,they havent been married long. in my thoughts love.xx

Thursdays is now officially MY DAY OFF. i am supposed to go out,do what i want,get away. mum has carer to come in and sit with her from 2 til 5 also the agency that provides tracy,different from the other ones, are supposed to come and get mum a cuppa and something for her lunch. not hard i dont think?? 15 minutes has been allocated. so yesterday,i didnt feel well,my swallowing not good,im a bit chesty,it was wet,cold,lousy. tracy is suddenly having a day off on thursdays once a fortnight,and yesterday was one of those days. so we had a lay in, i did breakfast and we had an easy morning. i just nipped over to pams,had to take her to doctors, the knee joint she had done is doing well. got home at 12,said to mum we will let the carer come and see to lunch while i am here so i could show her where everything is,have a cupa with us,etc. mum had already been phoned by the agency tha day before to be told tina wouldnt be there to get her lunch til 1.45 bloody late. but ok,tracy away,understand that. and i would leave mum a sandwich to have when she wanted. neither of us eat much at lunchtimes,i cook evening meal,we have a good breakfast. anyway,when i got home mum said, they arent coming to give me lunch. tina went off sick,so no-one is available. now it didnt matter yesterday. i was home. but another week it WILL matter. carol,the absolutely wonderful lady carer came at 2 and was shocked. i shall be writing to my social worker and complain. that firm is bloody useless. they have NO, i shall repeat that, NO relief carers. if a carer goes off sick,or has a holiday,they expect other carers to cover. we met an ex employee who tracy brought round earlier this year to show the ropes to,in the supermarket today. she told us she left after 2 months,she couldnt stick it. they tried to shove a load of extra calls onto her nearly every day. think it explains the slapdash care mother gets from tracy these days,she was 11 minutes giving mum a shower tuesday,drying and dressing her. i am getting very very peed off with the lot of them. caring is NOT a job,its not getting a job done as quickly as possible and buggering off onto the next,as fast as we can. its about caring for your client,chatting,making sure he/she is ready to face the day. unfortunately its money driven. the more "jobs" they can fit in,with the fewest staff equals the most profit. my mum is a number,not a person in their eyes. we shall see. thanks to all my friends for your comments. i feel a lot better. depression takes some shifting,i do have bad days. MS makes me depressed. but i am still going to be around. take care all