Wednesday, 2 October 2013

I AM SO SORRY,I AM NOT ON HERE VERY MUCH,AFTER MY MUM DIED IVE JUST BEEN SO BUSY.SO MUCH TO SORT.and yeah,i also get depressed.that don't help.i am having grief counselling,MS society have their own,i had a lot of guilt to get rid of.my mum had got so bad with dementia,i was finding it such a job to cope.then she died.and I miss her.even how she was.and I now have more time.i am back with my girlfriend,and we are happy,i can go over and see her so much more than I could before,ive just been co-opted onto our MS committee,i can help in a small way with transport duties,helps my friend knowing I am able to be there for her,things people take for granted.but I couldn't do before.and yes,i am enjoying that.still horrible waking up to an empty house.i am lucky I have good friends.heard from heart specialist today,the scan at Papworth shows damage to heart,but no new narrowing.so angina is probably stress related.keeping on with tablets.i have not heard about the biopsy I had done on my ear,so no news,is good news.i was sure it was just sun damage,so they are huge reliefs to me.everyone,i wish us all,pain free nights,peaceful days,take care all.thanks for listening,mort xxxxx

6 comments:

jack69 said...

A VERY HUMAN entry my friend. Most is very good to hear.
I have thought of the 'empty' house so much in the past couple years.

It is good to read how you are coping.
Take care and as always you are a chin-up kinda guy! That is good.

Sarah said...

Hi Mort my Dear friend. I'm pleased to hear you are coping and know it is still very difficult for you.
I am also pleased that your back with your girlfriend.
Sorry to hear about the results of your heart scan. Don't go over doing things.
You take care Dear friend. You are in my Thoughts and Prayers. Big Hugs and xxx

Helen said...

You're right, you were sharing and caring. It really hurts to lose a parent especially when you are their caregiver and it also hurts to lose two babies. I hope your heart gets better with part of your load lifted. Prayers that you will get better soon.

mortonlake said...

thanks to all xxx

Kath said...

Awwwww I hope you can continue to help in the way you are doing Mort,you are a hero realy you are.It's sooooo hard to lose a loved one and one so close as your Dear est Mum.You did all you could have done for her.Naturally you will be depressed for a quite time yet it's early days,but it does get easier.Happy to read your relationship is going well again.You look after yourself now and keep up the good work and try to keep smiling too,it's a long road depression andnot a very nice one to go down Mort.I know,I was down it for 10 yrs and now Iv'e climbed to the top of the ladder,I won't go down it again I hope.Take Care Hope your health keeps stable God Bless Kath xx

Lucy Horky said...

It is so good to hear from you. I probably think about you more than anyone I have met. As you know I had to learn to cope, but I was not so alone. I had the rest of the kids. They can't replace him, nothing can but they help fill the void.