Thursday, 31 December 2009
Grant me the strength from day to day,
To bear what burdens come my way
.Grant me throughout this bright New Year
More to endure and less to fear
.Help me live that I may be
From spite and petty malice free.
Let me not bitterly complain
When cherished hopes of mine prove vain,
Or spoil with deeds of hate and rage
Some fair tomorrow's spotless page.
Lord, as the days shall come and go
In courage let me stronger grow.
Lord, as the New Year dawns today
Help me to put my faults away.
Let me be big in little things;
Grant me the joy which friendship brings.
Keep me from selfishness and spite;
Let me be wise in what is right
.A happy New Year! Grant that I
May bring no tear to any eye
When this New Year in time shall end
Let it be said I've played the friend,
Have lived and loved for others here
,And made of it a happy year.
grateful thanks to sybil for this lovely prayer.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS ON BLOGSPOT,AOL,FACEBOOK,TAGGED,YEARBOOK,MYSPACE.
I HOPE 2010 IS A GOOD ONE FOR US ALL..
AND THAT THERE MAY BE PEACE AND UNDERSTANDING THROUGHOUT THE WORLD.
take care all,thanks for being my friends. mort
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
Thursday, 24 December 2009
Tuesday, 15 December 2009
along the front boarder.
santa on a swing is now 8 years old lol.
mainly rope lights this year.all multi function.the santa to the right is under a balloon.its actually like an umbrella.and nearly takes my fingers off every time.
the snowflakes are static cling,peel off after and keep.4 years old now.lol
Monday, 14 December 2009
i have hospital next tuesday about back.i should have gone last month.i got ready that wednesday,was up at 4.20,dressed had breakfast,woke mum at 6 as usual,she even got up before tracy arrived,i was showered,shaved and left the house at 7.15 to be in norwich by 8,30. i got in car,throwing appointment letter on front seat,started car,selected reverse,started to back down slope when.............my eye caught sight of that letter.i was sure it was wednesday.i knew it was wednesday.id even bloody checked what time i had to be there on the sunday,only........i actually SHOULD have been ther that MONDAY, how i made such a stupid mistake i have no idea.suffice it to say i had to go back in and apologise to poor mum for dragging her out of bed,lol.rung the hospital,explained,and am rebooked in for next tuesday.and yes,i checked.lol.on the 30th i have to have an assessment,as i am having another angiogram done on the 5th january.this is to check the steent i had put in.and at the end of january i have an appointment with the MS consultant. i am thinking of pitching a tent there lol.
many thanks to jeannette,Outside - Looking In - Jeannette's Jottings for the above award.according to what i was told,im supposed to say why i started blogging,and pass it on to 5 blogs that mean a lot to me,and who i think deserve it.well, i only did a post recently why i started caring and sharing.i was waiting for an assessment.carers.and decided to vent spleen lol.been here ever since.as a post note,i am waiting a new carers assessment.and have been for the past 2 months.3 phone calls,nothing changes,lol. anyway.im sorry but i cant pass it on via links,i dont have the blog urls on this laptop.but im giving it to LUCY,JANE,HERRAD,JEANNETTE (you didnt say i couldnt jeannette,lol)those 4 are the 4 i comment on.one more is private blog,PAM. jane as you all know is seriously ill,A journey of another kind, lucy,well lucy puts me to shame.herrrad,to say thanks for the awards she gave me,jeannette,because she has written some of the best entries ive read.pam,oh boy.my friend in america,because she makes me smile even when writing about sad things.you have or will have emails from me soon.go and do thou like wise. ok you excused jeannette.lol.im sorry but i dont have the patience to find your urls,but ive done my best.
lastly,i wish every reader,A VERY HAPPY CHRISTMAS,AND A PEACEFUL,AND JOYOUS NEW YEAR. whether i continue writing frankly is debatable.this has taken me well over 2 hours to do,and i find it increasingly harder to concentrate.take care all.i wish you all the very best in your lives.thankyou for reading,mort.
Tuesday, 24 November 2009
Tuesday, 10 November 2009
ON THE 11TH HOUR,OF THE 11TH DAY,OF THE 11TH MONTH 1918 THE WAR TO END ALL WARS ENDED.ALAS IT WAS NOT THE END OF WARS,KILLING OF INNOCENT MEN,WOMEN AND CHILDREN.AND STILL IT GOES ON TODAY.PLEASE,AT 11 AM PAUSE,THINK,REMEMBER THOSE WHO GAVE THEIR LIVES,SO WE MAY LIVE.2 MINUTES SILENCE SEEMS A SMALL PRICE FOR US ALL TO PAY.
Thursday, 29 October 2009
HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO YOU ALL.
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Wednesday, 14 October 2009
For myself i am in great discomfort,the bruising is still bad,both in groin,and wrist.but i have a walk to shop every morning,i cook dinner,do the housework,but i am also resting. thankyou all for your lovely comments and good wishes. and in advance for the prayers i know you will send for pamela. this is the reason i didnt go ahead and close my journal.when the chips are down,jland always looks after its own,take care all.
Saturday, 10 October 2009
so,all done and sorted? well,i knew i had a small haematoma,blood clot,under the skin in my groin.but at around 3 later that day i went to the loo,thought,cor that feels sore,looked and............it was huge.so i rang the cardiac nurses number at the hospital and explained i was a bit concerned.she said,so is it around the size,say of an acorn?ermmmm no,more like a very large hens egg.shape and thickness. deadly silence from other end. 2 minutes please. soon she was back,ok,i have spoken to the registrar,get up here now,as soon as you can,we need to see this.so,i had to get brian,mums friend to take me,pam being on nights i couldnt ask her again.30 plus miles.we got there at 6.i went up to cardiology and it was closed,but a nice nurse showed me to the cardiac ward.i showed the staff nurse the lump and she said,oh bloody hell.thats nasty.rang for a dr.i waited in day room,until a young medic came,he examined me on a spare bed,said,my registrar must see this,and went and got him.he carefully poked,prodded and generally had a good look,and said that it seemed to him that blood had pooled behind the catheter in artery,and it was this that was causing it.he was quite sure though that it would be ok,if any bleeding or if pain got worse i was to ring 999 at once.so we came home to a relieved mum.the wrist and groin have both given me hell.very painful,but today the swelling has subsiided.but the color. i am black in my groin and upper thigh.lot of discomfort.cant drive for a week,cant lift for a month.but i do feel better.lot of discomfort in heart but thats to be expected,and it is getting better.many,many thanks to all who left me so many lovely comments on facebook,to lucy for her mails,and to all who have been asking about me.
i go to pain management clinic in november about back,back up in december for consultation with dr E,and MS consultant in january.lol.may as well pitch a tent there i think.
I have asked for another carers assessment.i cant manage any more.ive tried,and tried.but mum is getting more and more forgetful and vague. luckily thanks to tracey and carol,and her friend chris,she coped the 2 nights i was away.but she wouldnt if i have to go in for a long time.and i need help.because im so tired.she cant help it bless her.and i wont let her go into a nursing home,but i do need further help at night now,and i am going to ask for it.im 56,i look 66,and feel 76.take care all.
Monday, 21 September 2009
On the following monday i sent my housing association a very long,detailed email,explaining all that had occurred,and that i was now left with no earth trip,which was A illegal,and B,extremely dangerous.and that it was THEIR house that would go up in flames if there was a serious electrical fault.that was at 12.15.at 1.10 my phone rung.housing association.claire,secretary to head of assets.normally complaints take 10 days to get sorted,but she had realised how serious the matter was and was seeing her boss at once.20 minutes later the phone rang again.the contractors.a very sheepish lady said,neil,our head electrician will be with you first thing in the morning,he will do a full test,and we will go from there.
At 8.20 the next morning neil arrived,pleasant,courteous,professional.he was horrified when i told him what the other electrician had done,and set about testing.it took him 5 hours to check every circuit.he found 4 things.the positive buzz bar was so loosely connected it had been arcing,and was the reason it later turned out the trip kept going out,fan in bathroom was set too fine,and noisy.light in bathroom was not up to regs.and the boiler wasnt earth bonded.he also changed circuits around,so every circuit is now protected by trip.oh,and yes,he replaced the trip.he refused to issue a certificate until the work was done,said he would order what was needed and left.the next morning he rung at 8,he had all the things,and was coming to do it.by 11 he was done,everything was checked.a true professional.i sent an email to claire asking for him to be commended and thanked for a job well done i may add.
over the next few days the lights flickered occasionally,then on the following monday,it was a wet and windy day,the overhead powerline was blowing about and as it did my lights flickered.bad.i had neils number and rang him,we both agreed it had to be the overheads causing the problem so i rung EDF,they sent out an engineer who got here after tea.it transpires my neighbour is on the same overhead,it goes to her main fuse first,then from a splitter to mine.and oh yes,her lights had been a bit flickery.shame you didnt tell me that when i asked you i thought.anyway,the engineer checked the fuses and connections and said he would order a linesman crew to come out the next day and check.and the next day 2 lorries turned up,up the pole they went and.............the neutral connector had split.corroded.and water was getting in,also the live was nearly as bad.15 minutes later,2 new connectors,job done.and the saga ends.no more problems.
This morning i had a phone call from my consultant,i go in to hospital the evening of october 5th,stay in overnight,op first thing tuesday 6th,will be in all day and overnight and released the next morning,hopefully angina free.it means i must now try and sort care for mum for 2 nights and days.and thats another story i fear.we shall see.
Lucy i am so sorry i havent been there for you,or jane,or anyone else.im just not reading blogs.and i apologise.take care all.
Friday, 11 September 2009
Sunday, 6 September 2009
The next day,friday i was off to Cromer hospital,small cottage hospital to see the orthopaedic triage.i had the MRI on my back done in june,i rung them 3 weeks after the scan,as i hadnt heard from them,and was told the triage would look at the scan and ring me back.then they rung to say she had looked,and i would be called back for another appointment with her and then..............nothing.i rung again,yes she would look at the scan and get back to me. ermmm i was told she HAD looked at it? oh?i will speak to her.week later i rung again.again i was told she had looked at it and i was "in the system" to be seen.then i finally got an appointment for friday. when i did get in to see her,she said,ive not even looked at scan,i havent been told you rung,nothing.lovely lol. anyway,we looked at the scan pics.together,and it can be clearly seen that i have yet another disc bulging and pressing on the nerve,hence the awful pain im getting.also showed some white patches,and she was rather quiet about those.i asked,those lesions? im not a nurologist she said,then looked at me.how many did you have last scan?4 or 5.ive now got around 9.oh well.thats another worry for a later date.in the meantime,i am going to try a course of steroid injections to relieve the inflammation,hopefully they will help,if not,and the pain is still as bad,surgey will be considered,and the verteba will be fused together.which sounds awful but she assures me i will still be able to bend,although a bit stiff,and that its an operation that carries a lot less risk than it used to.we will see.
now ive written before about the wonderful housing associations maintenance team,my bathroom door still a apainful memory.for the last 3 weeks my lights flicker,the power goes down,my fan motor slows,obvious there was a problem.an electrician ( ahem) came out,checked the connections to the main trip in the consumer unit,found they were so loose he had to turn the screw 5 times to tighten it, and that was it,until.................the trip went off in the middle of the night.no clock,good job it was weekend and tracey wasnt coming early.so he came out and changed the trip. 3 days later same thing happened. so they sent a surveyor round.he wanted a special test done on all the circuits before calling out the board,it could be the overhead cables at fault,and lo,the next day the same electrician came out.did he test?? nooooo.he did cure the trip going oiut though, in a most radical,and im sure efficient way.he took it out.removed it.rewired the unit so now...............ive got no protection if there is a serious fault.that was thursday,he said he would report the overhead cables at fault.now,i am going to write on monday a most long and interesting email to the head of housing,explaining the test wants carried out as ordered,that i am not protected,that this is illegal,and ...........WILL THEY BLOODY WELL SORT IT.NOW.i rather think that contract firm will NOT be doing repairs when the current contract ends next year.they are useless.
finally,welcome back to pamal3.those of you who followed her blog will be as delighted as i am she has finally graced us with her presence again.even if she dont write,she dont call,she just swans off without a word,i dunno,dont she realise that i wor..........ahem.sorry pam.lol.you knew youd suffer.im glad my friend is back.Almost 40! sorry i havent been around for you lucy,or you jane,but i have read your blogs and am up to date now.take care all.
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
painted lady with a peacock butterfly on the buddleia davidii "black knight"
self sown sunflower,lol.bird feeders were above it.its full of hover flies in centre
my white hollyhock,quite pleased with this shot
that new boarder i did at start of season has just bloomed and bloomed.
taken few weeks ago,most have gone over now and been removed.did well though
been lovely to see,fuschias were from last year,shant keep them as they show signs of fireblight
my pink water lilly.unfortunately the white one didnt flower this year,i didnt know that water lillies hate moving water until last year,the pump has been turned off to allow them to flower
taken a 1.30 am,in the middle of june.didnt really get dark.nights pulling in fast now though
taken at 10 pm came out pretty well.
feeding frenzy i get every morning when i throw the old cat food sooty has left out.glad you cant hear all the noise lol
Friday, 7 August 2009
I went in tuesday for the stents to be fitted.Pam dropped me off at the hospital,and i was on the ward at 11.10.i had to wait for nearly 30 minutes for a bed to become free,when it did it was near the window,and boy was i glad later at night.very stuffy and close day.they were very busy,but the staff were very courteous as always.i finally got taken down to the angio suite at 1.30.finally went through at 2,got up on table,connected up to ECG,when.........the surgeon came over and said,morton,i am so sorry,we have a 999 emergency call coming in,73 yr old lady suffering a heart attack,i oromise you will be seen to directly after we see to her. so i was unplugged,taken back to the recovery bay and waited.like me back in december she was rushed into the angio suite,and a well oiled machine swung into action.lol.bless her,she had 3 stents fitted,and was sitting up in bed later that night enjoying a cuppa.
So.i finally got back on the table at 4pm.2 surgeons,5 technicians,millions of pounds worth of scanners at work. one surgeon left at 5 ish,the other kept on trying to get a stent in but to no avail.the fact is he couldnt fit the stents,instead i had an angioplast on 1 artery,a balloon is inserted and the artery is "squashed"on the inside,making the artery wider.the other artery was just too narrow.apparently it goes into a sharp bend,then narrows like a chicane on a racing circuit,and it was just too tight a curve for him to get anything through.he told me there is a special balloon he will order that may work if i still continue to have trouble.and if that doesn't work,well it means Papworth hospital,bypass operation.finally,i was taken back to my ward at 7pm.missed me tea lol.bless the ward sister for the sandwich she had kept me.
Now,i had shaved the left side of my groin for the catheter to be inserted.the surgeon decided he wanted the right side shaved as well,in case he needed to go in that artery.so,i now got 2 nice smooth areas,all ready and............he went in through my right wrist.lol.i had to be connected to a pump that slowly fed a blood thinning drug through my vein for 12 hours,i was allowed up at 10.30 to use toilet,still connected to machine which i had to push in front of me.now,this was ok except,it squeaked as i pushed it,so at 4am,bearing in mind i couldnt get to sleep and raj,the absolutely fantastic night nurse in charge had made me 2 cups of tea and biccys,and the fact i hadnt taken the nasal spray to stop me needing loo,there was me going squeak,squeak,squeak,toilet door opens,squeak,door closes.silence.flushing noise.door opens squeak,squeak,oh i was popular.lol.
the pump was removed at 7,canular removed and after a quick breakfast i was sitting in dayroom.pam picked me up at 9 and i walked in my door around 10.15.
felt really sore,achy and tired today.yesterday i was ok,but i am now bruised everywhere,so i think it is delayed reaction.i am still getting a bit of angina,though it may be due to the op.anyway,i go and see him in 6 weeks time,where we will discuss what happens next.i really do not want a lot of bypass surgery if it can be avoided,but i shall be led by the consultant.
i am sorry,i just haven't felt like reading blogs,only tonight have i read a few,the MS has been playing up as it always does when i am stressed or tired.for some reason blogger has decided i am persona non grata at the moment,i got a message saying my network was sending messages to blogspot and i was banned until further notice.huh???i did see that several bloggers had had the same message,so we will see.i got on here to do this entry via dashboard.i have some great pics to share for the next time,but for now,take care all.many thanks for all the lovely messages on facebook,yearbook,tagged and emails.mort
Monday, 27 July 2009
i will know tomorrow if i do have to be in hospital overnight,rather sure i will,as appointment is at 11.00am.at least i do have carers sorted to look in on mum.take care all.
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
Saturday, 4 July 2009
Friday, 26 June 2009
Wednesday, 10 June 2009
philadelphus virginata,smells gorgeous.honeysuckle is self sown.
new colour in double petunia.in hanging basket
nicw fuschia,kept from last year which cost all of 50p.lol
petunias.these are lovely this year
baskets are looking good.fed every week,watered every day.
we get dozens of seagulls.took this after 15 shots of the bloody hedge,lol.they fast
new duck this year,donald n his mate are still here every day.shame because i thought they had stopped and cleaned the fish pond out 3 weeks ago.wrong.
clematis 'nelly moser' is years old.i bought it from the old house 17 years ago.
the new arch is quickly becoming covered
peony 'pink sorbet' this is the only one thats flowered out of 3 plants
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
THANKS TO NAT,London Calling
thanks to nat and lucy.2 more awards.im sorry but they are likely to be the last this blog ever gets.this is the end of my blogging,i can no longer carry on.its been more of a chore than a pleasure for some time,the MS seems to have made me unable to concentrate.i just dont feel up to carrying on with this any more.normally i would have written about mums visit to the chiropodists,remember her gout?cleared up.but 2 weeks ago she had an appointment to see the chiropodist,a new man we had never had before,first he kept us waiting 20 minutes over our time then.................he cut mums bad toe.pratt.she came out with a bandage on it as though it was a finger puppet.luckily it cleared up.im having an MRI scan tomorrow at 7.50am on back,finally.so early start.many more things i would normally share.but i cant seem to get myself motivated.sorry for not commenting on many blogs,still have problems with a loop that appears when i try.