3 YEARS ON

yeah it really is me.i thought I had finished with this blog,but it hasn't finished with me somehow.i did start a new one,but it wasn't right.so here I am.doubt I have anyone still here?no matter.
so,3 years have gone since mum died.3 years this month.how it has flown.i am now living in a 1 bedroomed semidetached bungalow.used to be warden controlled,with a warden on site.now,we have emergency pull cords if we need help.i am in Briston,close to friends.still see my ex.not sure if its 3rd time lucky,but we are close friends.both volunteering for the MS society,at our day centre.i am the transport manager,looking after 3 vehicles.am I happy?not really,suffer from depression,the damn MS is far worse,i have had several falls,also the gout wont go,its nasty.i suppose I am content,as much as is possible.still miss mum,still miss being a carer.it gave me a purpose.i am on facebook most nights,but I miss AOL,happy times.i made good friends in their chatrooms.and of course Jland.who doesn't?i am now 63,and feel it.every day seems a srtruggle.
somehow I missed most of you who I used to follow on here.
so,3 years on,much has   changed,some good,but I don't like being alone.and I feel so alone at times.wishing you all peaceful days,warm nights,and much love and laughter in your lives.and PLEASE,be nice to each other,take care all,Mort xxxx