Sunday, 8 January 2012

hearts and flowers



i have been feeling really ill ever since Christmas day.rushing around getting lunch,stressing,lol brought on a massive angina attack.my own stupid fault,but it made me really feel bad.pain in arm,tight feeling in chest,bad signs.so last week i went off to dr.M.he examined me,said heart sounded ok,was still beating at any rate,lol.but,i had a very nasty chest infection.did think i had,i could feel it.so put me on antibiotics,my favourite big yellow horse pills that always get stuck and taste vile.also,increased the beta blockers i am on to double strength,and i do feel much better.one worry less.the MS is bad at moment,loss of feeling in my hands leads to smashed crockery quite often,dropped a nice vase last week full of flowers mum had had for birthday.i am getting terrible nightmares as well,but i think they are the result of increased beta blockers.alll in all not the start i hoped for in 2012.



mums bunion is causing concern again,very badly swollen,and that split is very red.or its scar is.nurse will look at it if it gets worse,really do not want it to burst.nasty for her last time,took months to heal.



the group i started on facebook continues to grow,if anyone is interested in joining,please contact me or indeed Guido,he is an admin for me.anyone in pain with MS,FM,ME,Arthritis,diabetes,anything that causes pain and distress.we share what we are feeling,and we help each other.we care,we share. hmmmm wonder where i got that from? lol.why did i start it?mainly because 1 member had MS,and was worried.there are so many places you can get "help and advice" from,MS society being the best,but what about FM?yes,there is a web site,as there are for many if not all of the different illnesses,BUT they are all so impersonal.what as needed,i thought anway,was a place we could go to be with friends.where people could come together to give each other help and support.to share information,new advances,or,just to have somewhere private,where friends and family couldnt read,to unload what is worrying us.it is a private group,only members can read what we write.many members, and i have over 40 now have never written anything,or shared. but,and i have had messages and emails thanking me,still get comfort from reading what others have posted,and realising they are not alone with their fears. fear.it is a nasty thing to realise you have a disease,whatever it may be,that is affecting your life.making you "not the person you were".and it is nice to get support,and we are friends on there first and foremost.



anyway,hope you all had nice christmasses,and new year celebrations.it has been a mild winter here this year,no snow,at least where i am,indeed very,very few frosts.i found a clematis flower on the large one i have near my front door,and bulbs are poking through.i know we can still get a bad time,but it all helps.roll on the spring. the primrose in the picture is growing in a tub,lovely to have some colour in the garden.cyclamen are all blooming as well.pansies are poor though,slugs and snails had a good go before the winter.never really recovered.



i go and see my MS consultant next month,apart from that i hope to be free from hospital visits for a long time.i do hope you are all keeping as well as can be,take care all,mort xx

11 comments:

Beth said...

It sounds like it was a crummy start, but here's hoping to better days ahead!

Love & Hugs,
Beth

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Hope 2012 treats you well.

Barb said...

Hi Mort. The new year may not be starting out like you hoped but I'm hoping it will get better. It hurts my heart to hear how badly you've been feeling. You have so much to cope with but always remain positive, no matter how horrible you feel. I so admire your courage, your outlook on life, the sweetness of your heart. Your Mum, I know, must be so very proud of you. Not every son can, or is willing to care so lovingly for his mother.
The group you created has been such a blessing to us all. And, I know, for those members who don't share, but read the posts, they are comforted, knowing so many others understand how they feel. Fear is such a horrible thing. It helps me to remind myself that fear only has as much power as I give it. Well, I have to check on my Johnny. Just wanted to stop by, share a bit, and give you a hug.

Merry'sthoughtshopesdreamsandshemes said...

Mort, So sorry you are having more physical problems, you really do not need that.

I have bunions, one is truly bad, so I can imagine what your Mum goes through. At her age, healing is SLOW.

Mort, you have been such a good friend even before I joined Caring and sharing. You always treat people with dignity and respect, and in your own way, you are truly a comforter! Mort, hope you are better soon and that 2012 is a good year for you! Cuz you deserve it more than anyone I know. TC, God Bless, Merry Kenyon

jack69 said...

Hi Mort sorry to hear abourt the chest pain stuff and also terrible about Mum's foot. Seems one thing then another. But hopefully the 'horse pills' will help if you can get them down.

Wishing mush change.
Sherry & Jack, on the other side.

ADB said...

Hope things improve for you, Mort, it doesn't sound very nice at all.

Lucy said...

Hope you feel better soon.

Astra! said...

Mort..I hope you feel better soon and things get better for you in 2012 and for your mum too. God Bless, Love and Hugs...Sandra xx

Lisa said...

Hope you start feeling better my sweet friend, you TC, xxxxx Lisa

Rose said...

Sending well wishes your way.

Hugs, Rose

Lucy said...

Mort, I have severe arthritis pain but am going to orthopedist Monday. My pain and discomfort does not even compare to what I know most MS people have. Hope you start feeling better again soon.