my name is morton.AND I AM AN ADDICT.!!

I can barely write these words. the shame of it.but the time has come for me to admit to you all my shameful secret.  I AM AN ADDICT.   it started  so innocently,a friend got me into it,at first  i wasn't really interested,then slowly,before i realised  it          i was hooked.      now,here  i sit     twitching  from  withdrawal symptoms.   how low  have i become?   so what is it   i hear  you ask?  cocaine?  heroin??  crack??   the demon drink?    maybe  pot  or ecstacy?   no   far,far  worse.  i   morton lake  have  become an  addict  of            facebook.     and  to be more precise    owned on  facebook.         hangs  head  in shame.         lol       now  i know a lot has been written about facebook,and  other social networking  sites,and  yes  there are a lot of rubbish  on there,  but  i have got hooked on owned,  basically  you  buy "friends "photos  and earn  "lunchmoney"  for doing  so.   think  stocks and shares with a touch of poker  thrown in.   the secret is to know when to stop buying them back  lol.   and  before anyone says anything        i know a lot of jland  already are on facebook,and  its  sister site  my yearbook.  i got 3 as friends.   any one else  reading this  happens to be members,add me  lol.         so there you have  it        my shameful secret is out.    

actually  the break from writng this journal has done  me        and you    lol     a lot of good,i was finding it hard to write entries,writers block.lol.   hopefully i am back  for good.   but if i am away for any length of time,   at least now  you know  where  i am  lol.  wonder  if that pic sold  i just bo..........  oops  sorry   .ahem  

now, whats been happening?   mum  has had a lot of pain with the arthritis,and as i said  getting very forgetful,but  at the moment  seems pretty much ok.  got chiropodists tomorrow,so hopefully  her feet  will be easier  for her afterwards.  my MS?  ah,now  that  im afraid  is not so good.  i had a fall last week which has left me feeling  very sore.  i was in the garden,just planted a hardy fuschia out that had been in a pot all summer,trod it in,  came over dizzy,went backwards      so i automatically  stepped back   and..................fell straight over  the bloody water feature behind  me.   went down with a crash too.        that hurt.   swallowing bad at the moment,speech a bit slurred,legs hurt,ankle is  still swollen although the anti inflammatories  do help.   still going though  lol.   

i finally had an answer about the carers grant i had applied for. 2 social workers came last week to see mum an me.  ( im pretty sure they travel as pairs for moral support  lol )  my assessment officer is a new lady as the one i saw last year  is away on maternity leave,    and  she  was  quick to tell me          of course i am entitled to a carers grant.  they rang me the week before to make an appointment to come and see us.   the other lady is mums new social worker.she came to assess mums  needs.        although   quite  what she thought had altered  i am not sure?   and         i  did notice        that she is the  4th i have seen in a short space of time.  fast turnover in that job.  i do feel sorry for them actually.  it must be a hopeless task for them sometimes.

to cut a long story short,i am going to get a carers grant  to enable me to go out  one day a week,using  bus  and train         driving  long distances  is painful for me,   and  i decided on days out,rather than  going away  because  i dont think  mum is  too good  at me being away from her for any length of time,so i thought,a day out,once a week  will get her used to me being away          and  maybe next year  i can get away  for a week or so.        her social worker is arranging for a carer to come in to give her a sandwich  and cup of tea for lunch,also  crossroads carers will come for 3 hours  in the afternoon to sit with her,  this arrangement will be ongoing,  i am just waiting for  the cheque,and confirmation  when this can start.         to be able  just  to get to Norwich  for the day,look round the castle museum,cathedral   etc.        that  will do  for me  for now.   and wont be too stressful for mum either.  she knows i will be home around  5ish     and seems ok with the idea.

tracey has been on holiday for the last 2 weeks,so we have been getting up a bit later,she is back with us friday,i didnt want another carer in her place,as before when tracey had a holiday   her firm  wanted  mum to  keep having  different carers in each day, they always seem to be short staffed   so  we said dont bother. 

the  flowers  in the pots and baskets have all been dumped,and  i have winter flowering pansies in them in their place.    £3 for 20 at tescos,not a bad price,but the weather  turned warm just after i put them in  (at last  lol )  and they aren't doing all that well. i will post pics  later.      as for the tomatoes   they are  pulled up and dumped.  i can safely say  they were the  worse i have ever grown          tasteless,tough,not very nice at all. 

So,there  we are.  i think  i shall be with you again  as normal,but  i  dont promise  to read quite as many journals as i was  doing.   what with  facebook,and  poker,( i am playing a lot more than i did,and have joined a private league on AOL games,anyone  interested  in  good  poker,free to join  and  of course  play,i cant afford to play  for cash  lol,with  prizes  that  can be won  for no fee,lovely people to play with,get in touch and  i will mail details.)  jland   sometimes  gets slightly ignored by me.      but  i  do read  your journals.  i  am always  here  if anyone  wants  me,  i  do still care about you all. thanks for all your kind mails and comments,take care all.