firstly,thankyou to all you lovely people who left comments. i have been feeling very low, and when i'm like that best not try n post journal entry. but i don't keep down for long. so normal rubbish now resumes lol.
i was awake early,so got up and made cuppa,and took mum one. thought,best let sooty out for morning hunting session, and go back bed. so i opened back door,and there were 2 ducks sitting on doorstep. one very nonplussed cat had to jump over them to get out. bless i thought,going to get them some bread. i sat on bench near back door,2 VERY hungry ducks feeding from hand,when i noticed something. they weren't jem and donald. the female didnt turn head to look at me, and the males markings were different. 2 new ducks. just then,with a lot of quacking,"my" 2 flew in. ever seen a female duck run??? jemi came belting up path, lol. so now i got 4. the new 2 didnt stay,but my 2 soon had food and waddled off up garden. were laying near my gooseberry bushes nearly all day. i think there is a map somewhere in duckland, showing my house, with the words " here be an idiot,he feeds you if you look hungry" lol. hope they don't tell their friends.
i went back to my nice comfy bed til 9.15, got up,stripped bed, went and got papers, had brekky, ( strawberries, yummy and a nana ) then decided as nice day i would repair my rose arch. i made it over 7 years ago from wooden trellis panels, with honeysuckle and clematis growing up it. the posts for it were cemented into ground,but the recent gales cracked it,and arch was leaning precariously. brian had tied it up for me to railings. so i had 2 new posts, pushed arch back to where it should be, put post in ground,started to hit it with large hammer when the arch cracked,and the whole top section with over half a cwt of wood and honeysuckle clobbered me on head. the supports had broken,and the arch was in 2 bits. i decided it was beyond repair, so i took it out,cut plants back hard,and dumped the broken bits of arch up top of garden for burning later. my garden looks bit bare without it.but better that rather than someone getting it on top of head.
oh i did lol
i even did all the hoovering made beds busy boy lol. so, why this difference in me?? well,i was reading a ferw journals last night, people with cancers, dying whatever and i realised on here jland,chatrooms,whatever, i am never alone. i got friends. and that helped.
not only have i felt ill,but have been worried about mum, she has been vague just lately. been staring into space,as it were, so today i couldnt stand anymore. then found out the reason se is worrying about me. bless her. so i been worrying,about mum.who is worrying about me. no need i will be ok. so take care all and thanks for doing what i do caring morton xxx