Funny,all this time i been so sure i had MS, was relieved as i said to finally get it confirmed. and i was. no problems. until. last night i went on the MS Societies web site, thought i would pay it a visit. it is very good,and i saw a recently diagnosed pack and a booklet about MS,free,and ordered both,also asked for details to be sent about joining. i was fine,until i was filling in the order forms and had tears rolling down my face. basically dear readers,i howled me eyes out. so much for being brave mort. it just hit me,as i read about this nasty disease,i really DO have it. and it scares me. my mum relies on me for evrything,thats what being a carer is all about. caring. what will the future hold now?? i already know that i am worse than 4 years ago,my last scan. much more obvious now. so i cried. not just feeling sorry for myself,self pity is NOT me. but for mum. because she knows i'm not feeling well,and worries about me,and she shouldn't have to. bless her she is in so much pain herself,this just one more pain.
still feeling bit down,but determined to carry on as usual. christmas day,i will cook lunch and make sure mum enjoys it.
shopping tomorrow,not much to get,just some fresh vegetables, try and find mum a little something for xmas morning, and soon it will be over for another year. take care all may you all find peace,joy,love and happiness this christmas,and in the new year. morton